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67_4-4rom de White-Shine _=_Xian_XiA-hn_Xian-G _=_Makmur Wijaya
20-01-2009_21.42.21.49
Barrack Obama Inauguration Day’s
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Hurting own feeling~~
Feeling own hurting~~
Heart~Feel~Hurt ~ ~ Are they same ?
Feeling Hurting Heart
Hurting Heart and Feeling
Feel Hurt
Hurt Heart
Just something to tell.....
Too much hurt can make someone being mellow-sacratic ~~~ ......
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67_4-4rom de White-Shine _=_Xian_XiA-hn_Xian-G _=_Makmur Wijaya
18-01-2009_20.25.21.10
eat very full tonight .
after dinner , then some cookies and bread .
hem , very full .....
yesterday also , went to indra’s home stay weekend ...
so tonight , wanted go to sleep earlier .
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some scene of life makes me feeling uncomfortable ......
i don’t know ..... .....
anything have changed ...
i don’t think so , for what i still alive now ...... hm....
lunar new year coming soon ....
havn’t something special moment greeting this new year .....
still writing some chapter of life-story
still changing the life story
still searching , still looking
still thinking , still dreaming
freezing
under tension , under domination
i wanna life should go on ...
life must changed or
the world must changed ..... ?????
me
my life
my world
my destiny
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masi lum kembali ngutak-ngatik lirik ....
entah mengapa , merasa diri sendiri bukan orang yang puitis banget ...
Is writing a song very difficult ?
bagian puitis , menjadikan lirik lebih indah dan bermakna
emosi nya harus ada .
Disatu sisi jika mengulang emosi yang pernah ada , wa malas en takut .
Sejauh ini uda keluar dari keadaan kurang menyenangkan ,
tak lagi mencemaskan hal-hal tak penting
tak lagi menangisi hal-hal konyol .
Jika harus kembali kesana , demi menemukan emosi yang bagus ,
I’m tired .
Capek , en takut setelah pergi , tak mampu kembali lagi .
Disisi lain , tanpa emosi , lirik akan susah dibuat .
i think , i must studied more .
Hidup selain disibukkan aktivitas rutin , juga dipenuhi beban pikiran ,
beban bathin , beban psikologis .
luka lahir bathin , cedera jasmani rohani .
Sejauh merasa , merasa segala sesuatu tak menyenangkan .
But di balik semuanya , sisi lain diriku mengatakan .
“ That’s the happiness , passing day with routinity .
With friends , family , and peoples “ .
In the other side , i know , what i want , the dreams , haven’t be realized .
But this life was like this . Be a mature thinker , that all not only pain .
There’re also happiness . Only your feeling . That’s the feeling “
hurting own self , hurting another .....
i don’t wanna talk to another , i wanna put in myself .
yaph , selfishness
Kata tak ter-rangkai , hidup tak berkerangka , mati pun sia-sia
luka tak terhapus , malah lebih terlihat .... nyata
aku...lumpuh ...
harus kembali menata pikiran , menenangkan hati , belajar berdiri ,
berjalan , berlari ....
Must i said that : “ It’s better if i’m blind .
I dont wanna see anything again . ??????? ”
Di usia menginjak 20 , wa ingin ini semua berakhir .
Wa pengen di ulang tahun ke 20 . Wa bisa lebih tahu arti hidup .
I wanna when I’m 20 years old . I have , the real new , full happiness chapter
this time , listening some songs feels very calming
loneliness more obvious......
stopping in this place
was the ..... most hurt step .....
steping foward , i don’t know how
this time , listening some songs feels very calming
我都学不会
把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑
哭不敢哭
能不能不爱了
因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了
却无法把你忘了
then , the heart feezing
waiting the time melting .....
after snowing , i will melting
built from the ice ....
Suddenly , feeling wanna typing something ....
Today , i haven’t mood for repair or making lyrics.
Beberapa ari ini , wa ditenggelamkan oleh lagunya TVXQ , Love in the Ice and Neoul Baraboda ( After Glow ) ....
Inti dari lyricnya ga terlalu gimana juga la .
Lagunya juga gak sakratis amat .... yach mellow .... sejujurnya .
Hmm..ujian akhir 2 minggu ini kekna akan mulus banget .
I must get A for this term .
Hm...nothing mood tonight ... wanna sleep earlier .
Appa , Amma . Norul Saranghae .... !!!!!
Annyong , Cheoljae ....
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Shit !
abis online pagi .
Setelah ampe di rumah , then having lunch .
Wa tersentak . Read the synopsis of a book , who brought by my sister . Shit there is !!!!!
Dari semalam emang uda mau rencana nulis blog . Wa lagi capek .....!
seolah dunia serba salah
ini salah , itu salah , semua serba salah
runtuhkan saja dunia
biarkan semua kesalahan lenyap
seiring isak , teriakan , makian , dan derita .
era kegelapan datang kembali
haruskah awal tahun ini diselimuti kegelapan lagi ?
in my dream , i dreaming the fighting of horse and bull , then the horse hurting .
Is this the sign ?
ketika tak lagi memperdulikan dunia
semuanya datang menghadang .
kapan harus selesai ?
ketika tersesat di dunia yang salah
apakah jalan keluar hanya kebinasaan ?
menyesali masuk ke dunia yang salah
melihat kebelakang penuh kegelapan
butakan saja aku ,
agar ku tak lagi takut berjalan ke belakang .
berjalan ke belakang adalah salah
lebih bodoh lagi bila berjalan kedepan , dan mengikuti arus
dan semakin menjadi-jadi .
semua serba salah
dunia atau aku yang salah
sesal tercipta seperti ini .
i’ve walking at wrong way .
make me blind , then i willn’t see anything again .
it’s enough , i have see all things i hav see it .
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after reading some chapter from that book , feelings waking up .
actually , i’m not ready .
i don’t know when i will
hopes it’s comes earlier .
my pain come from love
my sins and pains come from my life
keep trying and believed i can
i think that’s the way
i hav a thought , that i havn’t an artistic
i need more practice , and destiny .
Art
Music
Entertainment
I like to get in to there .
Tired...
really tired......
Hoping i’m ready earlier ..
ready stepping fowards again !!
허겡디!!!!
annyong...cheoljae
