Rabu, 21 Januari 2009

Kata tak ter-rangkai , hidup tak berkerangka , mati pun sia-sia

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18-01-2009_20.25.21.10

eat very full tonight .

after dinner , then some cookies and bread .

hem , very full .....

yesterday also , went to indra’s home stay weekend ...

so tonight , wanted go to sleep earlier .

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some scene of life makes me feeling uncomfortable ......

i don’t know ..... .....

anything have changed ...

i don’t think so , for what i still alive now ...... hm....

lunar new year coming soon ....

havn’t something special moment greeting this new year .....

still writing some chapter of life-story

still changing the life story

still searching , still looking

still thinking , still dreaming

freezing

under tension , under domination

i wanna life should go on ...

life must changed or

the world must changed ..... ?????

me

my life

my world

my destiny

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masi lum kembali ngutak-ngatik lirik ....

entah mengapa , merasa diri sendiri bukan orang yang puitis banget ...

Is writing a song very difficult ?

bagian puitis , menjadikan lirik lebih indah dan bermakna

emosi nya harus ada .

Disatu sisi jika mengulang emosi yang pernah ada , wa malas en takut .

Sejauh ini uda keluar dari keadaan kurang menyenangkan ,

tak lagi mencemaskan hal-hal tak penting

tak lagi menangisi hal-hal konyol .

Jika harus kembali kesana , demi menemukan emosi yang bagus ,

I’m tired .

Capek , en takut setelah pergi , tak mampu kembali lagi .

Disisi lain , tanpa emosi , lirik akan susah dibuat .

i think , i must studied more .

Hidup selain disibukkan aktivitas rutin , juga dipenuhi beban pikiran ,

beban bathin , beban psikologis .

luka lahir bathin , cedera jasmani rohani .

Sejauh merasa , merasa segala sesuatu tak menyenangkan .

But di balik semuanya , sisi lain diriku mengatakan .

“ That’s the happiness , passing day with routinity .

With friends , family , and peoples “ .

In the other side , i know , what i want , the dreams , haven’t be realized .

But this life was like this . Be a mature thinker , that all not only pain .

There’re also happiness . Only your feeling . That’s the feeling “

hurting own self , hurting another .....

i don’t wanna talk to another , i wanna put in myself .

yaph , selfishness

Kata tak ter-rangkai , hidup tak berkerangka , mati pun sia-sia

luka tak terhapus , malah lebih terlihat .... nyata

aku...lumpuh ...

harus kembali menata pikiran , menenangkan hati , belajar berdiri ,

berjalan , berlari ....

Must i said that : “ It’s better if i’m blind .

I dont wanna see anything again . ??????? ”

Di usia menginjak 20 , wa ingin ini semua berakhir .

Wa pengen di ulang tahun ke 20 . Wa bisa lebih tahu arti hidup .

I wanna when I’m 20 years old . I have , the real new , full happiness chapter

( 16 , 17 , 18 , 19 , 20 ............... ................. .................. ................... .................... )

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